Twenty minutes, thirty minutes, an hour is just not enough. A fight against time. Pressure. It’s a teaser, an introduction to a novel with never ending chapters. It stirs me up. The drive home is long enough to remember a number of other thoughts I would like to share. Why the need to share? Not sure, but what I do know is that if I don’t release it, it will continue to move, tug, and stretch, until I can’t focus on anything else. I tried distractions. Household responsibilities do not help. So, the only choice left is to…write…
Yesterday I wasn’t feeling well, so I came home early and took a nap… I found myself in a meadow, surrounded by trees and bushes. It was dusk, and I felt uncomfortable being alone in the middle of nowhere. I was sitting in a chair, I closed my eyes and I heard someone speak. But no one was there. I closed my eyes again. Words came very fast, and I tried to focus on their meaning. Mentally I asked them to slow down. As they came in more clearly, I let them have full control of what they will say. I wanted to hear their message. At that very moment I realized I had some power to hear voices from beyond. The words where messages from the past. Words I knew well… I became completely loose. With my thoughts still present, I become weightless, my body stretched out, and I began to float. I watched myself as an outsider. This was too much. The power from within was too much for me and I became frightened. I wanted it to stop. I pushed my legs to stop. STOP!… My conscience woke up. I was no longer dreaming, but I couldn’t open my eyes and I couldn’t feel my legs. When I forced my eyes open, I still couldn’t feel my legs, which were stretched out in the air. My heart was racing, I was completely freaked out. What just happened?… Out of body experience?
For the past three nights, there were different dream scenarios. Last night took place in another world, in another time. Like “Hunger Games” or something like it, though I never read the books or watched the movies. I was running away, hiding from some group of people. Abandoned buildings, old railroads, and collapsed bridges. But I was fine…we were fine. And when finally confronted face to face, the group that was chasing us was no one to fear. We held the supremacy, and we didn’t have a clue. There was no need to run or hide. The chase was over.