Sometimes I wanted to scream into the face of my own reflection. Sometimes I wanted to do nothing. Sometimes I wanted to sit and look into far empty spaces. Sometimes I wanted to do everything and make something huge out of my life. Big ideas drove me to prove to myself that I can do anything and that nothing can stop me. I wanted to be victorious and celebrate my choices…It hasn’t been that long and I’m already questioning myself. Did I make the right decision? How can I fix it? All I ever wanted was simplicity and honesty. My feelings might be complex, but they’re pure enough. I wanted them to be accepted for what they are, and to be considered when making statements. However, the thing I wanted most is to be made feel better, to be offered a hand, to be reassure that all will be fine… Having one foot on the brake at all times, is an exhausting way to drive. And it usually leads to an unwanted, but very familiar place of emotional turmoil.
Just another fact about humans is that we look for support. We need others to comfort us. To be there when one is wounded, and help them heal. Licking own wounds might work for a some scrapes, but when you got open skin, emergency measures are vital. Otherwise, one might just bleed to death…
Today, a miracle will do the rescuing. The Power that is in all, and above all… “Only say the word and my soul shall be healed.” …