I did something today that was very very difficult to do. I was anxious. I was nervous… For years it was good and it was fulfilling. But after much thought, I just had to. I had to let it go. It wasn’t easy and I had many conflicting points on which I had to build my case. But at the end, I knew it was the best decision for me… for my family… I resigned as the director of polish school. I’m still very torn because for the last three years I have given it my all. I lead events, created activities and had implemented fresh ideas. I felt the school was doing well…. I enjoyed all my teacher and the students. But there is another side to administration that does not resonate with me. The part where I had to work with unpleasant, negative, manipulative and straight forward not a good individual. One person makes a difference. And in my present circumstances, I don’t have the energy to jump over such hurtle. I choose to be with my family. I choose to sleep in, go out, plan a day and truly live in these moments of my life…. I do feel badly, because first, I’m not a quitter. I made a commitment and I had to break it… this is out of my comfort zone and it took a lot strength to actually say the words. Second, I know it was a important experience for Daria. She watched me be a leader. She was proud of her mama doing something good for the community. She learned and resided poems, songs and took part in various celebrations. She pushed out of her own comfort zone, because she knew public speaking made me nervous too…
I will miss it… I will surely miss it, especially the fun teachers, and the parent community, who supported my work for those number of years…
Yours Truly,
Bittersweet.