A Dark Cloud
A permanent shadow of sadness is larking behind. And I know it will never be the same. We walk and we talk… A smile emerges, but it is of happiness? The house is different. The family is changed forever. A quiet hole sucking it all out.…
Blank Mind
I’m a blank mind. Can’t think straight. I want to be happy. I want to enjoy this special time… My daughter is so excited about the baby and I want to be excited with her… But I’m overwhelmed. I’m devastated. …
Meditation Day
I chose to stay home today. It was a good decision. I slept. I dreamt. I ate, slept and dreamt some more. I traveled with music. To places… Emotion-land. The views were spectacular. Yours Truly, – For my Health
Worried
My dad is very sick… I can’t go through this… again. I don’t have it in me. I’m hoping for the best, but thinking of the worst… I’m scared. And I’m worried.
Rain
It’s been 6 months 3 weeks and 5 days since I shed tears. The type of cry that lets rivers of pain flow in currents of true grief… Emotional state has summoned, squeezing my aurora. It’s getting really tight in here.…
Indigo Child
She must have some special link. From the time she was very young…. Seeing my mother in the middle of the night in her room… Wishing upon every falling star and birthday candle for a baby brother or sister… Knowing one is already growing……
Long Way Home
It took some time. To find a way. A long way home. There is a lovely quote. It changed the way I define life. – “The two most important days in your life are the day you were born and the day you…
20 Years…
“Grief, I’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the love you want to give but cannot. All of that unsent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part…
Tiny Little Thing
A tiny little thing. Rapid heart beat. Breathtaking. A body in my body. One unit. First sweet home. A tiny little thing. Safely tucked inside. Blooming life. Miracle.
The Peace Child
I am in a state of peace. A peace trance. Calmness. I rest midday. I don’t mind being lazy and taking it slow. This is not like me, for every little free time I use to have was quickly occupied with some activity.…
New Life
A New Chance. A New Life. Growing. Changing. Beginning. In Me. In Me. Inside of ME. My Love. My Life. Yours Truly, – Motherhood.
Future Friends
My daughter continues to amaze me. Her insight is brilliant and quite surprising. She’s my girl and my biggest teacher… A few weeks ago, while driving home from a friend’s house… “Mama, I have something to tell you, but you can’t tell…