Now this! The world is untwisting. “As above, so below. As within, so without”… The so called pandemic has gotten everyone in the state of fear. “As above, so below. As within, so without”… A reflection of the collective human consciousness. Accumulating for years. Predicted by various sources, numerous times. Why now? Because now is the time to sieve through those who will “see” and those who will stay blind. Survival of the fittest, if you will… Are we ready for the evaluation of our conscious mind? Who will survive? Who will see beyond? Who will be saved? Who will be the chosen?
As above, so below. As within, so without… If this untwisting world is the reflection of my very own inner, well then it’s just the perfect timing. Exclusive planning to the day… So now let’s explore this- After thirty plus years of living twisted, imprisoned by my inconsistency to make choices and old triggers; I am now learning to live and breath in freedom. Untwisted, the world and my life is quite a different experience. I never imagined such feeling existed. I never knew I could feel such comfort in my body, in my thoughts, and in my heart. Light seems brighter. Love richer, and more expensive than ever. And hope. Oh my dear hope! It has returned to me, strong and anew. A tiny fresh seed, nestled in my chest. I can feel it. Inside. Sprouting so slowly. And quietly. And so very privately.
My journey of healing has been long and thorny. Since childhood, things happened that shouldn’t have. Leaving me twisted. Nothing ever felt quite right. In adulthood, imbalanced and frustration began to show up much too loud. So, I ran. I hid from reality and seeked refuge in a dreamy world. A second life, with its own twists and turns… That was the beginning of the mysterious need and curious mind to go further, deeper. And I did. I dived in. A deep dive into the darkest spaces of my existence. Each adventure brought me closer to my truth. Each time something was revealed and let go. The latest, was the greatest! A pandemic in my own body, poisoning from inside out… And I pulled that shit out! I found it and pulled that monster out. Stunned at what it was. The BIG thing that tangled and twisted so much of me. I never knew this was the root of it all. I just never could have imagined! And it’s out of my body!!! OUT OF MY BODY!!! Untwisting everything that was so wrong. I got my choice back!
As the last secret burden of my childhood trauma released, all begin to connect. All the pieces begin to fall into place. One large puzzle… Every experience, my reactions, my triggers, my pleasures, my personality, my “I” exposed fully. The thread weaving a story of me and my life, from birth to now.
It’s been about two months, since that episode. I’ve been closely observing this unique “I”. And I love her! I love her patience, and compassion. I love her beauty and creativity. I love her bad days and how she’s able to work through it. I love her body and ways to release energy. To heal self and others. I love how she is able to take care of herself and know exactly what she needs and what she wants. That’s freedom! To know it, feel it, acknowledge it. Every aspect of who I am is welcomed and loved. What a feeling!
Why do I choose to share my story? I don’t particularly share, I write. When I write, my creative side is happy. She gets to express herself and she really takes pleasure in that. I would like just as much, if no one read it. It is enough for me to know, that my words are send far into the universe. That is all.
What’s my world like now? I was asked to answer a question. A basic question. What is my dream? What is the thing that I most deeply desire? And if I can have it, what would it be? What is my dream? The BIG dream. Awww, yes!… My dream is simple, really. My dream is to live a long, healthy and happy life. That’s all- a long, healthy, happy life. I want to raise my children in a happy home. To live long enough to have my grandchildren sit on my lap so I can tell them stories of the olden days. To grow old together. To be close to each other. To love and share. To give and sacrifice. And most of all to stay. I choose to stay. I choose to live. I choose because I can. Choice is power. And I got mine back.
~ “I am” By Satisang~ …and so are you.